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I am More than Tone, Part Ten

confessional; seattle, wa 27 june 2009

Last night I dreamt of horses and catching up.

In the middle of the night I woke up because the scarf I tied around my eyes was far too tight, and my eyelids were sore.

This morning the inside of my bottom lip was swollen because I had been biting it all night while I slept.

I don’t know how to better explain what’s going on here.

+oh,don’tcrossyourfingers

+Sayyouweremethenyoucouldseetheview
+You’llknowweareequallydamaged
+Don’tbeafool,makeiteasier
+You’lllearntosaywhen
+Signalifyoucan’tsay,”nomore”

(Don’t cross your fingers
Sundays will never change
They keep on coming
You’ll be a freak
And I’ll keep you company)

Download: Blonde Redhead - Anticipation, Four Damaged Lemons (3rd Eye Remix)
Buy the Album: Blonde Redhead - Misery is a Butterfly, Melodie Citronique

I am More than Tone, Part Nine

i wanna stay here with you forever (porgy); seattle, wa 27 june 2009

it will take days and days and days still to not collect details with the express purpose of giving them to you.

i am starting to write just to myself again

+ on napkins,

+ the backs of receipts

+ in the margins of the quarterly

+ on the soles of my feet

there are pictures of cherry-stained fingertips and lips

handmade postcards

pressed petals

and my scent,

waiting for a home.

Download: Björk & Matmos - Unravel, You’ve Been Flirting Again
Buy the Album: Björk & Matmos - Live in Boston (Thank you, Internet!)

I am More than Tone, Part Eight

lucky rabbit’s foot, rose petals, a koi fish, and krakow; seattle, wa 07 june 2009

hours and hours of lectures and cream-soaked honeyed earl grey tea

my obsession with white flowers reaching a fevered pitch

the family of crows who have taken up residence outside my window arguing at 430am,

coming into my dreams and turning into seagulls and seals,

so then i was dreaming of bobbing along gently on the ocean

tracing small drawings on the back of unopened envelopes

daydreaming of remedios the beauty again,

feeling still

Download: Fryderyk Chopin - Mazurka Opus 17 No 4 in A Minor
Buy the Album: Chopin - 51 Mazurkas

Download: Rainy Days (zip file)

1. Melodium - Ive Been Here Before
2. Tape - Beams
3. Guillemots - Falling Out Of Reach
4. Sam Amidon - Sugar Baby
5. M.Ward - Outro
6. The Battle Of Land And Sea - You Are A Sailor
7. Max Richter - Cascade NW By W
8. Erik Enocksson - The Flames
9. Peter Broderick - Below It
10. Ray La Montagne - I Still Care For You
11. Beach House - Gila
12. Kaki King - So Much For So Little
13. Kago - Luftivennad
14. Band Of Horses - I Go To The Barn Because I Like The
15. Grizzly Bear - Deep Blue Sea
16. Six Organs Of Admittance - Words For Two
17. Silje Nes - Ames Room
18. The Drift - Nozomi
19. Riceboy Sleeps - Happiness

I am More than Tone, Part Seven

seattle, wa, 31 may 2009

It doesn’t matter, does it?

Download: Eluvium - Requiem on Frankfort Ave. / The Promise Ring - Miette
Buy the Album: Eluvium - Copia / The Promise Ring - Horse Latitudes

I am More than Tone, Part Six

Picasso’s Blue Period

Oh,
oh
oh oh oh.

Let us never, ever forget how good Calla was.

(we promise to stay still, we hold onto each other, we reach our hands out and say “please, let’s just lay down here…just for a little while.”)

+ should be, could be you.

(a special post for KHM, who understands.)

Download: Calla - Elsewhere (Live on WNYU Radio), Fear of Fireflies (Live on WNYU Radio)
Buy the Album: Calla - Insound Tour Support Series Vol. 22

I am More than Tone, Part Five

we had an accident; seattle, wa, 07 june 2009

They played this album in full at the cafe this morning.

I was done halfway through the songs,

and really I’d been there for so long already

(I was the first customer of the day, bright and early)

but I sat and just remembered for a long, long time.

I sat and watched the cafe fill up around me and I became untethered,

I was somewhere else.

+ long, hot afternoons in the Bay Area,

+ cold, dark mornings in Iowa

+ midnight basements

+ becoming covered to the wrist in paints, wet colorful fingerprints on tumblers filled with bourbon, blue and grey and green edges to our cigarettes

+ sitting up on fish ranch road with these songs streaming out of the windows while we watched the bridge reach up through the fog

+ laying in bed with 3am voices on the phone, my high, empty apartment ceiling blue from the monitor light

+ sitting in the window, watching the factory across the way fill the dark grey sky with soft white plumes, the only beautiful thing i had seen for weeks.

It took a long time to gather myself and it almost seemed like an accident that I was where I was,

For a moment I got stuck in the cotton candy-like gauze of memory.

Download: PJ Harvey - Beautiful Feeling, Horses in My Dreams
Buy the Album: PJ Harvey - Stories from the City, Stories from the Sea

I am More than Tone, Part Four

Bunny, Brian Boner; location unknown, date unknown

+ what happens when you sleep

+ we collect our small moments where we will

+ my spaces

+ damaged details

+ flowers

+ cold

+ everything dies

+ stolen shots

+ a universe between the petals

+ prurient

+ walking home

+ so sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me

The heat broke and now it is raining again.

My windows are still open and the wind is blowing along with the water falling through the leaves

and the smell and sound of it accompany this song as if they were supposed have been part of the recording.

Download: Windy & Carl - Set Adrift
Buy the Album: Windy & Carl - Depths