connexion: the selector

29 January 2009

Jeff Buckley - Lover, You Should Have Come Over, We All Fall in Love Sometimes, If You See Her, Say Hello, You and I (Guitar Version)

Filed under: — jessica @ 6:38 pm

I Author My Own Disaster, Volume Four, Part One


sean marc lee, set two, picture eleven, location unknown (and inconsequential); date unknown

Oh gosh.

Jeff Buckley.

I mean, you know–right?

The times he’s been most important in my life are the times when I understand and feel both perspectives,

both sides of what he’s singing about.

It’s hard. All of it.

I try so hard, every day, to be strong enough for it,

but I know I need help because I often feel too weak to just…

I often feel too weak to be able to shoulder it all.

I want to, but the fear of failure is paralyzing.

I mean, what if I’m just not enough?

Download: Jeff Buckley - Lover, You Should Have Come Over, We All Fall in Love Sometimes, If You See Her, Say Hello, You and I (Guitar Version)
Buy the Album: Jeff Buckley - Live à l’Olympia, The rest? Thank you, Internet!

27 January 2009

Sigur Rós - Starálfur

Filed under: — jessica @ 9:20 pm

Oneiric Morse Code Transmission, v2, Part Four


nick bantock

+++contra natura

Download: Sigur Rós - Starálfur
Buy the Album: Sigur Rós - Heim/Hvarf

25 January 2009

Boards of Canada - Gyroscope, Dandelion

Filed under: — jessica @ 8:59 pm

Oneiric Morse Code Transmission, v2, Part Three



pre-reflective influence. the seeds of everything that you hear (in your heart, in your head)

We protect ourselves at the site of trauma.

+like a heart that’s experienced a seizure in silence,

++i know what the scar looks like, on the leg, in the middle of the chest.

+++i’ve done the things that make it better.

i understand how to heal.



We wrap our arms around the places that hurt, we fold ourselves in half.

We shut out everyone, because we don’t trust anyone to understand.

Download: Boards of Canada - Gyroscope, Dandelion
Buy the Album: Boards of Canada - Geogaddi

24 January 2009

Lush - De-Luxe, Sunbathing / Swervedriver - Out / Catherine Wheel - Texture, Heal 2

Filed under: — jessica @ 1:27 pm

Oneiric Morse Code Transmission, v2, Part Two


“bees”, camille ryan

It’s been like this for weeks:

The sky so overcast it isn’t grey, it is sweet milk-cream white.

When the sun comes out, even for a moment,

you can see it in people’s eyes, they start to clear up,

you can see the vaseline and gauze falling away as they stare up into the yellow and blue.

Hopeful.

We are all sharply stung by winterbees, dreaming about Spring.

Download: Lush - De-Luxe, Sunbathing / Swervedriver - Out / Catherine Wheel - Texture, Heal 2
Buy the Album: Lush - Gala / Swervedriver - Sandblasted / Catherine Wheel - Ferment, Like Cats and Dogs

20 January 2009

Langley School Project - God Only Knows / Blossom Dearie - Try Your Wings

Filed under: — jessica @ 6:53 pm

I am Soft in Exactly All the Right Places, Part One

The world would show nothing to me,

so what good would living do me?

Download: Langley School Project - God Only Knows / Blossom Dearie - Try Your Wings
Buy the Album: Mi Vida Sin Me (My Life Without Me) - Soundtrack

19 January 2009

Jeremy Enigk - Explain, Shade and the Black Hat, Call Me Steam

Filed under: — jessica @ 11:03 pm

I Author My Own Disaster, Volume Three, Part Ten

it’s ok we’re both broken.

we’ll figure out how to piece it all back together.

Download: Jeremy Enigk - Explain, Shade and the Black Hat, Call Me Steam
Buy the Album: Jeremy Enigk - Return of the Frog Queen

17 January 2009

Stars of the Lid - Tippy’s Demise

Filed under: — jessica @ 9:04 pm

I Author My Own Disaster, Volume Three, Part Nine

Incidental Things:


+finding the dirt under your fingernails not in the slightest off-putting

+taking stock of the things you can and can’t do–and being honest

+finding that you may always, always find yourself within the same four walls

+taking a bath thinking it might set things right and discovering you’re very much fooling yourself

+the terrifying prospect of having to close yourself up again into the same tight box for God knows how long


+++what your heart feels like upon understanding that

+realizing your greatest fear: the gentlest, kindest you have to give isn’t even close to enough.

Download: Stars of the Lid - Tippy’s Demise
Buy the Album: Stars of the Lid - And Their Refinement of the Decline

16 January 2009

Red House Painters - Drop

Filed under: — jessica @ 9:13 pm

I Author My Own Disaster, Volume Three, Part Eight


we are all blown apart

.

Download: Red House Painters - Drop
Buy the Album: Red House Painters - Ocean Beach

14 January 2009

Aretha Franklin - Nobody Like You / Nina Simone - Don’t You Pay Them No Mind, You’ll Never Walk Alone

Filed under: — jessica @ 6:45 pm


how we do

Happy Birthday, Dear Heart.

Download: Aretha Franklin - Nobody Like You / Nina Simone - Don’t You Pay Them No Mind, You’ll Never Walk Alone
Buy the Album: Aretha Franklin - Jazz to Soul / Nina Simone - Wild is the Wind/High Priestess of Soul, Little Girl Blue

04 January 2009

Zegunder - Caterpillar

Filed under: — jessica @ 3:42 pm

We Collect Our Small Moments Where We Will, Part Six


a gift, seattle, wa; 1 september 2004

Flowing in
And filling up my hopeless heart
Oh never never go

Download: Zegunder - Caterpillar
Buy the Album: Various Artists - Intelligent Toys 2 (Free download from Sutemos. Thank you, Internet!)

The Remote Viewer - Listening to Ballad of the Band

Filed under: — jessica @ 10:22 am

Songs for Self-Obsession Served with Fever-Flavored Tea, Part Seven


6 years ago, on the dot

the people are becoming smoke and clouds

Download: The Remote Viewer - Listening to Ballad of the Band
Buy the Album: The Remote Viewer - You’re Going to Love Our Defeatist Attitude

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